Let me start off with saying Aloha Everyone!
After 3 plane rides that seemed to take forever and no sleep for 36 hours, I finally arrived to this mediocre place called Hawaii. It may be even more beautiful this second time around. I wish everyone could experience the beauty this place holds.
However, I have to say, I miss Pawleys Island. I miss the smell. I miss my people. I miss my truck.
This is a very new feeling for me… Usually I don’t really miss things. Let me just go ahead and say that i don’t think not missing something is bad. I think its a gift. I know somebody reading this is confused and may possibly think I’m and alien or robot. But let me assure you, i have a heart and a belly button. I have feelings, but living in the moment is more incredible to me than brooding over what has been.
But like I said, this is a new feeling for me so if you can imagine, I have been crying like a pig. Maybe Im like the Grinch and my heart has grown three sizes bigger this day. This month. This year. And to be honest, this feeling sucks. But its showing me a greater depth to love. A deeper depth to Gods love. I miss the island that I once thought was a small prison cell. Sometimes I wish I could just be there for a second to just get a glimpse and say hello!
I know I’m blessed with a gift of wanting something new all the time.(my Mom would call this gift impulsiveness) God can totally use that for His glory. But I feel like He is showing me that missing someone isn’t a weakness. Its okay to run to a different part of the world and miss what you left behind.
Matthew 8:18-22 When Jesus saw the crowd around him, he gave orders to cross to the other side of the lake.Then a teacher of the law came to him and said, “Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go.” Jesus replied, “Foxes have dens and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.” Another disciple said to him, “Lord, first let me go and bury my father.” But Jesus told him, “Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead.”
Now I’m not going to decipher all that could be meant in this passage, but I believe what Jesus is showing me right now is that I can totally leave everyone behind. It doesn’t stop me from moving forward. But the unhealthy part for me is not living out the first and greatest command of Jesus Christ: to love..
Now let me summarize this so it might make some sense. I love people. I love new things. But sometimes my love for new things causes me to forget about the people that are closest to me.
So let me apologize to you if I have hurt you. Please know it was unconsciously done.
Living in the moment is bliss. But loving someone is true joy. And that’s what I’m learning right now.
But on a lighter note, I’m so stoked to be back. There are around 1000 people on campus during the day so I am meeting so many new faces. I’m also hearing some pretty cool God stories on how each of them got here which helps keep my heart in place knowing our Father will provide. Since there are so many people on campus, most of the staff have been asked to find housing off campus. In other words, there is NO ROOM for us on campus…
That really stinks.
But check this out. The reason there is no room is because there are so many students. That means that the bed they had for me ON campus is now given to a student who will be able to encounter God in more ways than she can imagine!
So as stinky as the situation is, God is still being glorified.
So please be praying for housing for me and many others. We are all excited to see how our Papa provides.
Love you all. Miss you all.
I honestly mean that.